semangat !!

sumpah nyebelin bangeeettttt !!! hari ini gw terima rapor dan nilai gw sumpah ancur bangettttt !! emosi banget dah. mana ga dapet ranking coba. emang sih usaha gw kemaren kurang maksimal. jadi ya wajar kalo nilai gua juga segitu-segitu aja. ga bisa bikin bangga orang tua gw (lagi). akhir tahun yang menyedihkan pokoknya. ya allah.. semoga semester depan gw bisa lebih baik lagi. bisa berusaha lebih maksimal lagi. ga pengen celelekan lagi. ga pengen main-main terus. pokoknya musti seriuss !! gw pasti bisa !!

SD ku milikku

Aku adalah seorang alumni SD MUHAMMADIYAH GUNUNGPRING MUNTILAN yang beralamat di Jl. Santren II Gunungpring, Muntilan. Selama 6 tahun disana aku menemukan banyak sekali hal yang mengesankan, menjengkelkan, membosankan dan sangat mengharukan. Tahun 2000 aku resmi menjadi murid sd tersebut. Setelah menjalani berbagai tes dan melengkapi berbagai persyaratan untuk menjadi murid di sd tersebut. Saat itu kondisi sekolah belum sebagus dan semegah saat ini. Apapun yang digunakan masih serba jadul [haha.. yaiyalah jaman segitu] Tapi tiap pagi aku selalu semangat buat pergi kesekolah. 

Sejak kelas 5 (5 apa 6 yah? Lupa :p) kita sudah mulai didik sebagai petugas upacara bendera. Setiap hari senin, kita mendapat giliran untuk menjadi petugas upacara yang dirolling setiap kelas. Tugas yang dijalankan diantaranya ; Pemimpin Upacara, Pleton (3 anak), Pancasila, Petugas Bendera, Protokol, Do’a dan juga Janji Pelajar Muhammadiyah. Janji Pelajar Muhammadiyah hanya ada disekolah-sekolah Muhammadiyah. Dan aku bangga karena aku pernah bertugas sebagai pembaca Janji Pelajar Muhammadiyah J. Janji pelajar Muhammadiyah tersebut bunyinya : 

Janji Pelajar Muhammadiyah

Rodhitu billahi robba Wabil islami dina Wabi Muhammadin Sallallahu Alaihi Wassalam Nabiya’n wa Rasulan

Kami Pelajar Muhammadiyah Berjanji

1. Menjunjung tinggi perintah Agama Islam.

2. Hormat dan patuh kepada orang tua dan guru.

3. Bersih lahir batin dan teguh hati.

4. Rajin belajar, giat bekerja serta beramal.

5. Berguna bagi masyarakat dan negara.

6. Sanggup melangsungkan amal usaha Muhammadiyah.

Isi dari janji pelajar tersebut kurang lebih menggambarkan bagaimana siswa-siswi atau putra-putri Muhammadiyah itu. Kita sebagai warga Muhammadiyah yang baik memang harusnya memenuhi apa yang ada di dalam janji pelajar tersebut. Juga seharusnya kita mengamalkan apa yang dimaksud ‘Amar Ma’ruf Nahi Munkar’

untuk guruku

sebenernya gua mau mosting nih postingan kemaren. tepatnya tanggal 24 November 2010. tapi karena masalah koneksi yang lemotnya minta ampun jadi, gua mostingnya hari ini . -harap maklum :)-

 

yippiii.. today is Wednesday. Wednesday is free day. ha? bukannya bukan tanggal merah ya? hoho. memang di kalender ga ada tanda-tanda tanggal merah di hari Rabu tanggal 24 November 2010. tapi bagi seluruh pelajar Jogja dan sekitarnya hari itu adalah hari libur. emang ada apa sih kok libur? what's your name? hari gini ga tau kenapa tanggal 25 November libur? haduuuh.. kemana aja sih? hehe :) oke dah gua kasih tau [emang siapa yang pengen tau? (--")] haha. whatever dah pada mau tau apa kagak. yang penting gua kasih tau \m/yesterday is TEACHER DAY atau biasa disebut HARI PGRI :) bagi para pejabat, pengusaha, dokter, pedagang, pemulung sekalipun pasti pernah merasakan jadi seorang murid. tak terkecuali siswa-siswi yang masih bersekolah. siapa sih orang yang berjasa dibalik kesuksesan mereka? siapa sih orang yang selalu sabar mendidik orang-orang sukses itu? seorang pahlawan tanpa tanda jasa. yang ikhlas menularkan pengetahuannya untuk kamu, untuk kita tepatnya. sejak taman kanak-kanak (tk) atau bahkan playgroup, kita mulai mengenal yang dinamakan guru. hem.. makhluk tuhan yang memang diciptakan untuk mengabdi pada negeri. yang juga diciptakan untuk kita para murid. pernahkah kita berfikir, apakah mereka tidak lelah ketika mereka harus mengisi pelajaran pada jam siang? apakah mereka tidak marah ketika mereka sedang berbicara dalam kelas dan kita (muridnya) juga sibuk mengobrol didalam kelas? akupun tak pernah membayangkan berapa meter kubik lahan kasih sayang yang mereka miliki. yang harus ia bagi dengan keluarga dirumah dan 'keluarga disekolah'. tak jarang aku dan teman-teman dikelas ku tak menghiraukan apa yang beliau ajarkan. kita lebih asyik bercanda tertawa, dan lebih parahnya kita juga sering mengkritik atau menjudge beliau. kita sangat suka menjadikan guru-guru kami sebagai bahan tertawaan kita, sebagai bahan kita buat ngegosip atau bahan kita mencaci. padahal, mereka selalu ikhlas dalam membagi pengetahuannya. mereka selalu sabar menanggapi kita saat dikelas. meskipun terkadang mereka agak keras atau sedikit membentak kita, karena mereka sayang kita -muridnya- jika ada waktu untuk menuliskan atau merenungkan kesalahan kita pada guru kita sejak tk sampai sma ini, kertas satu buku pun tak kan cukup. airmata pun tak kan mampu menghapus sakit hati pada guru kita. mereka adalah pelita dalam hidup kita. mereka bagai embun yang memberi kesegaran dalam dahaga ilmu. ENGKAU PAHLAWAN KU ! ENGKAU PATRIOT BANGSA !

 

Hymne Guru

Terpujilah wahai engkau ibu bapak guru Namamu akan selalu hidup dalam sanubariku Semua baktimu akan kuukir di dalam hatiku Sebagai prasasti terima kasihku Tuk pengabdianmu

Engkau sabagai pelita dalam kegelapan Engkau laksana embun penyejuk dalam kehausan Engkau patriot pahlawan bangsa Tanpa tanda jasa

my feel now !

ku buka jendela pagi ini tapi justru dada ini semakin sesak adanya perasaan ini takut tak keruan perasaan ini tak seperti biasanya setiap ku buka jendela pagi rasa bahagia harusnya tapi tidak untuk saat ini aku selalu merasa tak tenang biar orang bilang aku lebay biar orang bilang aku berlebihan tapi memang ini yang aku rasakan aku selalu merasa takut aku juga selalu merasa bingung aku tak tau apa yang harus ku lakukan ya ALLAH... hamba tau ini cobaan darimu beri ketabahan kepada kami untuk menghadapinya beri kekuatan kepada kami untuk berjuang melawannya beri kesabaran kepada kami dalam melewatinya karena Engkau lah maha perkasa karena hanya Engkaulah maha pengasih lagi penyayang dan hanya pada-Mu lah kami meminta maka lindungilah kami dari semuanya aminnnn.. :(

untuk sahabat :)

biarkan saja kekasihmu pergi teruskan saja mimpi yang kau tunda kita temukan tempat yang layak sahabatku kupercaya kan langkah bersamamu tak kuragukan berbagi dengan mu kita temukan tempat yang layak sahabatku kita mencari jati diri teman lautan mimpi aku bernyanyi untuk sahabat aku berbagi untuk sahabat kita bisa jika bersama kita berbagi untuk sahabat kita bernyanyi untuk sahabat kita bisa jika bersama tiba waktunya kita untuk berbagi untuk saling memberi

whatever !!

gua ga tau musti ngadu sama siapa. gua juga ga ngerti musti nangis dan marah didepan siapa. semua ini terlalu singkat dan terlalu menyakitkan buat gua. gua kira semua yg elu omongin ke gua tuh serius dan ga bercanda. tp semuanya boong ! jangan kira cewek tuh sesosok makhluk yang lemah yg ga bisa berbuat apa apa. jangan kira cewek tuh bisa cowok perlakuin seenak udel lu ! cewek tuh punya perasaan. kalo emang uda ga sayang dan pengen mengakhiri semuanya jangan gini caranya. omongin baikbaik sama gua. janji doang yang lu obral. tp mana realitanya? ga ada ! nihil !! kayaknya tuh gampang banget yah elu nglakuin semua itu sama gua. ga pernah ngertiin prasaan gua. gua tau elu sibuk. ya gua pahamin elu. gua coba kasih semangat ke elu. tp apa balesannya? sms sms ketus yg kayaknya ga ngehargain gua. elu juga tau kalo gua lagi sakit. uda gitu masih aja elu tega nyakitin hati gua. bener bener bikin makan ati yah ! sakit tauk !! jangan salahin gua kalo gua dapet yang lain !! elu yang mulai !!

hari bersamamu

3hari yang terakhir dari dia yang tak terlupakan. Yesterday, Today and Tomorrow. ya itu kata dia. dia bilang distatus fbnya " Ini bukan yang terakhir,tapi inilah sebuah permulaan.Thanks,YESTERDAY aku belajar darimu.Untuk TODAY,aku sangat begitu berterima kasih denganmu.Dan untuk TOMMOROW bantulah aku untuk melepas semua!" elu nulis itu kemaren hari Sabtu tanggal 18 September 2o10. elu numpang update di komputer rumah gua. gua ingat itu :'(. yeah.. yesterday is friday. gua ngebet banget pengen nonton 'SANG PENCERAH' dan hari itu gua bingung nyari temen. akhirnya gua kepikiran alvin. langsung aja gua sms in ke dia buat gua ajak nonton. awalnya dia ragu tp akhirnya dia mau. setelah dia mau gantian gua yg ragu. gua ga bakal boleh pergi kalo ga sama cewek. ya udah gua sms si eva (temen sd gua) eh dia mau gua ajakin nonton. si alvin bilang kalo jum'at tuh hari pendek. kita juga bisa berangkatnya abis dzuhur. ya udah gua sama eva berangkat duluan, niatnya sih biar ga kehabisan tiket. dijalan kita sempet keujanan juga. tp kita mah nekat. hehe. dan akhirnya sekitar jam 1 kita nyampe amplas. abis parkir di basement kita langsung naik ke lantai atas dan masuk ke 21. kita liat tulisan di deket mbakmbak penjaga nya yg intinya tiket buat jam 11.00 dan 13.20 habis. huh.. gua sama eva marmos banget. eh di21 kita malah ketemu sama tementemen gilagilaan gua di SMA. kita pun langsung berpelukan. haha [kayak teletubies]. mereka juga mau nonton sang pencerah tp katanya kehabisan tiket dan akhirnya mereka nonton DARAH GARUDA. tp gua sama eva tetep nyoba nanya ke mbakmbak tiketnya. kita tanya yg jam 15.20 ternyata masih ada 3 tiket. disini kita bingung. soalnya kan yg mau nonton 4 anak. trus yg satu gmana? tanya eva. iya juga ya. masak sih kita ninggal 1 orang diluar? apa angga yg suruh nunggu? kasihan dia. "ya udahlah ndin. kita ambil dua tiket dulu aja gmana?" tanya eva. "ya ga papa va. tp ntar mereka gmana?" jawab gua. "kalo mereka suruh nonton yg sore aja gmana ya? kirakira mau ga?" tanya eva lagi. "mau kalik. yaudah mb ambil dua" kata gua ke mb penjaganya. dan akhirnya kita ambil dua tiket itu. abis itu kita sholat dzuhur. eh ternyata kok diluar hujan. gua jadi kepikiran alvin sama angga. kasihan mereka. abis itu kita makan. abis makan kita ke gramedia sambil nungguin alvin sama angga. dan beberapa menit kemudian mereka sms kalo uda pada nyampe. dan kita ketemu di gramedia. gua ga tega liat si alvin kedinginan. dari atas sampe bawah basah semua. kasihan banget dia ! tp abis itu gua ninggalin dia. dan dia marah sama gua. yayaya emang wajar kalo dia marah ama gua :p karena semua itu garagara gua. ya alasan bisa diterima. hehe. dan akhirnya gua nungguin alvin sama angga nonton sampe jam 6 lebih. dan gua sholat maghrib disana juga. trus kita pulang bareng dan mampir dirumah gua. gua tau si alvin masih marah sama gua. alvin sama angga nyampe dluan dirumah gua. stelah gua sama eva nyampe gua langsung turun dan si angga pamitan soalnya dia balik ke pondoknya bsok pagi. yah okelah. meski ga rela. hehe. trus gua salaman juga tuh sama si alvin. kayaknya sih masih marah trus gua tanyain 'bsok jadi ke sini lagi ga?' eh dia langsung senyum trus bilang 'iyalah'. wuuh ! dasar ! haha. abis itu gua masuk soalnya semua pintu dirumah gua uda di kunci. trus gua cium tangan gua kok ternyata parfum dia masih ketinggal ditangan gua. huuuu wangi banget ! wanginya tuh tahan lama gitu deh. hehe. trus malemnya dia telfon sama sms gua. ternyata dia masih marah. hemm.. dan akhirnya hari menyebalkan itu berakhir. kemudian pagi itu adalah TODAY. hari sabtu tanggal 180910. jam 10 dia nyampe rumah gua. sebelumnya kita uda berdoa semoga hari itu jadi hari yg menyenangkan. ya.. dan hari itu benarbenar jadi hari yang sangat menyenangkan bagi kita. kita ketawa bareng, curhat, ceritacerita ngalor ngidul dan duduk berdua. hanya berdua ! ya gua seneng banget ! dan kita juga sempet sholat dzuhur bareng. dia jadi imam gua sama adek gua. ya.. baru sekali ini di imamin sama orang yg pernah ngisi hati gua. it's so AMAZING !! :D abis itu kita ngobrol. kebetulan tementemen adek gua baru ada dirumah. mereka tuh anak didiknya si alvin pas sanlat. ya udah kita semua asyik ngobrol. terus dia juga numpang update status di rumah gua. tp hari itu berjalan begitu cepat. jam 3 kurang dikit dia pulang :'( tp sebelum dia pulang adek gua minta parfum nya yg sumpah wangi banget ! trus dia pamit. dan yah.. hari itu pertemuan kita yg terakhir sebelum dia balik kepondok. siangnya kita sms an sampe malem. terus jam 9 dia telfon gua. ya kita ngobrol banyakkkk banget. dan pas kita ngomongin TOMORROW gua langsung speechles dan gua cuma bisa nangis. bukan cuma gua tapi kita. abis itu kita bercanda lagi. dan tiap nyinggung masalah perpisahan slalu saja air mata kita yg bicara. dia bilang 'jalan kita berbeda sayang. tapi kita akan selalu berjalan bersama. kamu motivasiku untuk bangkit kalau saja aku terjatuh. dan nanti saat kita sudah sampai ditujuan kita masingmasing. aku ingin ada senyum' ya kurang lebih gitu deh katakata dia. hehe. kita telfonan sampe jam 1an. itu pun gua blom puas. hehe. di telfon juga dia bilang kalo dia bakal berubah ga kayak dulu pas dia blom kenal gua luar dalem. ok gua terima janji dia. dan paginya dia bangunin gua jam 05.00 rasanya ga pengen malem itu berlalu secepat itu. dan TOMORROW pun terjadi juga. hari itu hari minggu. ya.. jadi minggu kelabu buat gua. gua males banget bangun. ga pengen hari itu terjadi ! tp itu semua uda terjadi. jam 06.25 dia brgkt dari rumah. trus jam 06.40 dia sms gua bilang barusan lewat jalan mau kerumah lu gua nangis lagi. yayaya. malem minggu pas kita telfonan kita uda janji kalo malam itu air mata kita terakhir keluar. tp ga bisa ! siang itu gua nangis lagi ! -- kita sms an terus sampe malem. sampe dia sampe pondok dan sms kita harus berakhir. siangnya dia juga sempet telfon gua 2 kali. dan gua nangis lagi ! rasanya berat banget harus ditinggal ke ma'had ! sorenya gua sms ke semua nomornya tapi ga terkirim. ternyata hapenya lowbat. dan gua iseng sms ke nomor ibunya. ternyata ibunya malah telfon gua 2x dan ga gua angkat ! gua takut jawabnya. trus ibunya sms 'ini siapa ya?' trus gua bales 'ini andin temennya alvin buk' trus ibunya langsung respon positif ke gua dan langsung ngirim sms yg panjaaaannnng banget. isinya tentang gua sama alvin. ya begitulah.. gua tau ini cobaan ALLAH buat hambanya. dan gua yakin kita mampu mengatasinya. gua pengen cepetcepet sibuk di sekolah. biar bulan februari ga terasa lama. makasih sayang uda mau ngisi hari gua meski ga full 50 hari :)

not you

aku ingin menyayangi bukan hanya menyukai. tapi aku lebih memilih dicintai daripada meyayangi. memang tidak adil kelihatannya. aku akan mencintai orang yang benar-benar mencintaiku karena ALLAH. aku akan menyayangi orang yang menyayangi diriku hanya karena mengharap ridho illahi. tapi aku akan menyukai seseorang hanya karena aku tertarik akan anugerah yang diberikan ALLAH :)

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selama kepulangan elu yang 50 hari kita baru ketemu 2 hari. dan sampai gua posting ini gua blom dapet 1 pun hari special dari elu. gua sayang elu :)

-- berkah ramadhan --

buat sebagian besar orang bulan ramadhan merupakan bulan yang penuh berkah malah bisa dibilang sangat penuh berkah. setiap orang pasti punya jadwal bukabersama yang cukup padat. dan warung makan di semua kota insyaallah selalu ramai di sore hari. tepatnya menjelang buka puasa :) ya.. tp gua disini ga mau ngomongin warungwarung itu. haha. tanggal 2 September 2010 hari kamis malam jumat [detail] gua punya dua acara yg entah disengaja atau tidak dilakukan bersamaan. yaitu buka bersama di SD Muhammadiyah Gunungpring tercinta dan buber with SEGO MAMBU crew .yang namanya buka bersama kan dimanamana waktunya sama *yaiyalah*. sebelum hari H *baca:hari kamis* gua bingung banget mau berangkat ke buber yg mana. hahhh so confused ----. akhirnya pas gua cerita sama tementemen eseemaa gua tercinta :* mereka kasih usul gini "mendingan elu berangkat gasik terus ke sd dulu ajah. terus ntar kalo uda mau buka puasa elu meluncur ke rumah mb ulva.terus ntar elu balik ke sd lagi kalo mau tarawih" --temanteman yang bijak. terimakasih -- and finally gua ikutin apa yg mereka katakan. jam 5 kurang dikit banget*baca:5menit* gua berangkat dari rumah [abisnya mbak fahma sama eva lama banget ngabarinya] kemudian jam 5 gua nyampek sana. ternyata sudah lumayan banyak orang disana. haha masak banyak hewan sih? ga mungkin dah kayaknya :p. kemudian gua memarkirkan motor gua diparkiran antar jemput [yg pas jaman sd dulu suka mainmain disitu] setelah masmas ngasih kartu parkir ke gua, gua langsung masuk ke sd dan bertemu dengan makhluk tuhan yang paling seksi. hahahalayy. mereka adalah mb Renisa Fahma dan Eva. setelah kami ngobrol cukup lama*baca:5menit* kita ketemu lagi dengan duo mu'alimat yaitu mb Intan dan Atik. kemudian gua ketemu lagi sama cowokcowok yg pas jaman sd dulu sumpah culunnya eh skrg mereka tambah kerenkeren :p such as ichal, irawan, odhi danlainlain. kemudian jam 5 lebih 15 kayaknya. gua meluncur ke rumah mb ulva. sebenernya gua ga boleh pergi ama tementemen sd gua tp gua ga mau ninggalin segomambu jugak. setelah gua ngobrol lumayan banyak sama mereka, gua terbang kerumah mb ulva dengan motor kesayangan gua :). kayaknya tuh brgkt dari sd tuh masih sore kok nyampe di rumah mb ulvanya uda malem. perjalanan yg gua tempuh dari sd sampai rumah mb ulva tuh rasanya jauuuuuuuuuhhhhh banget ! hahalaybeudt. dan setelah perjalanan yg beriburibu kilometer itu gua tempuh akhrinya gua nyampe juga dirumah mb ulva. yg ternyata mereka semua sudah buka puasa :( gua dateng paling akhir diantara yg akhir*yg penting berangkat ya :p* disana gua langsung melibas habis segelas esbuah sama dua gelas esteh *sstttttt* lalu gua ngobrol bentar ama SEGO MAMBU crew yg kemudian dilanjutkan dengan sholat berjamaah. gua, mb ulva sama mb janti milih jama'ah sama pipi, bayu, indra, ulsa dan nopriyan. dengan imam pipi :p takbiratul ikhram dilakukan.. dan setelah surat al-fatihah dibaca ga ada yg menjawab 'amiiiinn' setelah itu. haha. abis kita semua sholat, kita foto bersama gitu. dan setelah itu makan nasi kotak. tp punya gua kagak gua makan tp gua bungkus. soalnya si affan uda sms in gua mulu suruh cepet ke sd. ya udah belum selese acara itu gua uda balik ke sd lagi. ga tau kenapa perjalanan ke sd kok ga terlalu lama. meskipun dengan bensin ditangki limited. haha LOL. setelah sampe di sd gua kelimpungan soalnya gua kehilangan jejak tementemen sd gua :p ternyata mereka ada didepan kelas 6. gua pun langsung naik ke atas [masaka naik ke bawah?] disana ada endah, atik, mb intan, mb fahma sama eva. tp sebelum gua nyampe depan 6a, gua shock liat dua cowok yg uda mulai beranjak dewasa di depan tangga. ternyata mereka Odhi dan Arif *dewasa* haha. sumpah mereka berubah banget ! mereka uda ga udik kayak dulu ! hahaha. abis itu gua sama mb fahma langsung ke aula buat sholat isya' + sholat tarawih. pas wudlu kita ketemu sama preman2nya 6a dlu. haha. ternyata yg pada sholat di aula tuh anakanak kelas 1 sama kelas 2. otomatis kita [gua sama mb fahma] jadi pusat perhatian mereka. liat mukena mereka yg bagus bagus jadi suka deh. hehe. gua ama mb fahma kagak ikut jama'ah sama pak imam. tp kita makmuman ber2. mb fahma ngimaminya cepet banget ! serasa olahraga malam. haha. abis itu kita naik lagi ke kelas atas. lalu kita fotofoto :) tibatiba datanglah segerombolan manusia yang ternyata tidak lain tidak bukan adalah tementemen gua ! haha. they are adinandra yg skrg uda menjelma jadi manusia besar yg super besar. haha. ichal yg tambah putih tambah gilak tambah ga waras. erwin yg tambah item tambah wagu aja. ardan yg tambah putih jugak tp dia pendiem. luludt yg tambah tinggi jugak. dan tibatiba datang lagi 2 orang manusia dari gontor yaitu angga dan alvin yg tambah nyebelin. tiap gua jalan kemana aja pasti di ikutin sama si alvin. dia juga sempet nariknarik tas gua. dan akhrnya kita ngobrol walaupun geje. haha. ternyata dia ga terlalu pendek juga. wkakaka. abis itu mb fahma sama eva ngajak pulang. ya udah gua pamitan ama temen2 sd gua yg gilak semua itu. haha. eh pas gua salaman sama si adinandra tangan gua ga dilepasin terus salaman sama si ichal tangan gua juga ga dilepasin salaman sama si arif jugak. wah.. pokoknya acara salamsalamannya jadi lammmmaaaaaaaa banget. haha. dan gua salaman sama si alvin juga. diapun sama kayak yg sebelum2nya ga mau ngelepasin tangan gua. hah. emang tambah gilak semua mereka tuh ! haha. pas gua jalan di bawah gua bareng sama eva sama mb fahma. gua uda berusaha ngumpetngumpet biar si -tuutt- galiat gua. eh ternyata dia tetep liat gua .pake manggil segala lagi. huaahhhh.. saat itu gua bingung ngejawab semua pertanyaannya. gua salaman ama dia dan tangan gua ga dilepasin [lagi] oh god !! setelah kita ngobrol gua pamitan pulang duluan. sampe di gerbang ketemu sama pak deni. digodain sama pak deni lagi. huhu. sumpah malu banget ! masak sih pak deni tanyanya bilang "dapet apa ndin td?" haha. sumpah gu speechles. setelah nyampek di parkiran gua ambil motor. dan keluar bareng si alvinjelek. haha. dijalan gua ga hentihentinya nengok kebelakang. rasanya tuh kayak ada yg ngikutin gua gitu deh .haha. pas nyampek di deket gulon ada motor yg njejer2 ke motor gua gitu. ternyata bayu. hemm.. ya udah say hai+senyum aja deh. sampek rumah rasanya ga pengen malam itu berakhir terlalu cepat :]] nih ada foto gua sama tementemen gua di sd tercinta cuma dikit sih.. tp yg penting ada :p

gua sayang banget ama semua anakanak SEGO MAMBUdan SD MUGU 2005/2006. mereka terlalu baik ama gua. makasih uda mau jadi sahabat gua. buat alvin makasih buat kasih sayang elu :) banyak banget kenangan di sd yg ga terlupakan. semoga tahun depan masih bisa kumpulkumpul lagi :*

sumpah mellow banget !

ok guys i will start to write something about my feel. yeah.. masih tentang perasaan gua. lets see !

gua emang bukan seorang cewek perfect yang bisa dibanggain semua orang. yah..gua tau di dunia ini emang ga ada orang yang perfect. gua juga tau kalo gua punya satu kelebihan yang ga orang lain punya dan gua banyak buanget kekurangan yg oranglain punya.allah itu maha adil dan allah itu maha mengetahui. jadi kita ga boleh mengeluh dengan apa yg allah berikan kepada kita. hemm.. meskipun gua sendiri pun pernah mengeluh. ga cuma pernah sih sebenernya tapi terlalu sering mengeluh !

yahh... gua cuma seorang cewek jelek yg ga pinter nyebelin dan ga ada apaapanya dibanding cewekcewek tenar di sma gua. pasti elu semua ngebayangin gimana jeleknya gua. tp yang terpenting hati gua lebih cantik daripada fisik gua #insyaallah# sampai detik ini gua uda 5 kali lebih pacaran. dan gua kapok ama yg namanya pacaran. di sma gua kenal ama tementemen yang baik dan insyaallah bisa membawa kita menjadi lebih baik dan selalu di jalan yg lurus. gua dapet banyak bangett pelajaran dari mereka. mulai dari pelajaran agama, pelajaran formal maupun pelajaran tentang kehidupan.

kirakira waktu gua kelas 10 gua ketemu lagi ama seorang temen sd gua dulu. dia cowok, anak pondokan dan dia cakep ya dia terkenal banyak yg suka juga dulu waktu sd. dan elu tau gan? kita pernah jadian. entah kapan tepatnya kita jadian gua juga ga tau. yg pasti kita jadian. sejak kita jadian itu dia uda pulang 2x. kepulangannya yg pertama dia masih nunjukin sikap cueknya. dan cueknya itu ilang tibatiba waktu dia mau balik kepondok. yeah it's noproblem. pas dia di pondok jarang banget dia contact gua malah bisa dibilang gapernah lagi. terus kepulangannya yg kedua itu kemaren tanggal 1 agustus 2010. dia pulang dan tetep nunjukin sikap cueknya[kalo pulang emang mesti gitu] ga tau juga kenapa. uda jadi kebiasaan kalik ya? tp itu ga berlangsung lama. stelah gua chat di fb tukeran nomor hape yg baru terus kita sms an. setelah beberapa hari beberapa minggu kita sms an ga tauk knpa dia bilang kalo dia masih sayang sama gua. padahal sebelum dia ngomong itu ke gua, gua uda bilang kalo gua mau nyoba ga pacaran. jadi pas dia ngomong itu gua coba konsisten ama statement gua itu. and he say 'ok'. kemudian kita tetep contactcontactan. tp gua ngerasain kalo kita itu ga cuma sebatas temen tp ga pacaran. gimana tuh? gua juga bingung. hehe. yah ga taulah apanamanya. tapi yg jelas gua lebih nyaman sama status ini. tiap kali dia deket sama cewek gua pasti cemburu. apalagi dia tuh cakep, pinter, alim juga. gua yakin banyak cewek yg suka sama dia. ga cuma GUA !

gua slalu berdo'a pada allah agar dia selalu dalam lindungannya. agar dia selalu berada dijalan yang benar. yg gua mau i love he because ALLAH and i want we will together becaus ALLAH too. aminnn :)

tentang siapa?

hari itu tanggal 1 agustus 2010.hari yang seharusnya menjadi hari kebahagiaan bagi gua.dimana saat itu anak-anak gontor pada pulang. ya seharusnya. tp kali ini sepertinya tidak harus. hemm .. sehari gua tunggu kabar dari dia.tp masih nihil.dua hari tiga hari empat hari masih sama.mungkin gua blum beruntung fikirku.sampai akhirnya gua coba buka fb di kelas pake laptop temen gua.gua idupin tuh laptop trus gua conectin di wifi sekolah gua.untungnya saat itu jaringannya cukup kuat.jadi gua langsung bisa login ke fb.saat itu gua syok abis.pas gua barusan succes login dan masuk ke home gua, di sana ada tanda message.gua uda nyangka kalo itu message dari si dia.bener aja prediksi gua.habis gua buka, gua baca tuh message dengan penuh perasaan *ceileh* gua coba ga nangis disitu.soalnya gua lagi di kelas :[ inti dari message itu dia pengen kita temenan aja.ok lah gua ikutin apa maunya dia.meskipun hati ini tak ingin jauh darinya *haha.heekkk*ah tapi bodo amat.mau cinta kek mau kagak kek.egepe amat. haha.

nih lagu yg lagi cocok ama suasana diatas :p

-Bertahan- Rio Febrian

Sedih…
Ku tahu kini perasaanmu…
kepadaku..

Sedih..
Saat engkau tak yakin kepadaku..
akan cintaku..

Jalan Berliku takkan membuatku..
Menyerah akan cinta kita..

Tatap mataku dan kau akan tahu..
semuanya yang kurasakan..

Aku bertahan karna ku yakin cintaku kepadamu..
sesering kau coba tuk mematikan hatiku..
takkan terjadi karna ku tahu kau hanya untukku..

aku bertahan ku akan tetap pada pendirianku
sekeras kau coba tuk membunuh cintaku..
dan aku tahu kau hanya untukku…

Tatap mataku dan kau akan tahu…
Semuanya yang kurasakan….

Aku bertahan karna ku yakin cintaku kepadamu..
sesering kau coba tuk mematikan hatiku..
takkan terjadi karna ku tahu kau hanya untukku..

Aku bertahan ku akan tetap pada pendirianku
sekeras kau coba tuk membunuh cintaku..
dan aku tahu kau hanya untukku…

Aku bertahan ku akan tetap pada pendirianku
sekeras kau coba tuk membunuh cintaku..
dan aku tahu kau hanya untukku…

-Paramore-

Paramore merupakan sebuah grup musik asal Amerika Serikat yang dibentuk pada tahun 2004. Grup musik ini bermarkas di Franklin, Tennessee. Anggotanya berjumlah 4 orang yaitu Hayley Williams, Josh Farro, Jeremy Davis, dan Zac Farro. Album pertamanya ialah All We Know Is Failling dirilis pada tahun 2005.Paramore merupakan sebuah grup musik asal Amerika Serikat yang dibentuk pada tahun 2004. Grup musik ini berasal di Franklin, Tennessee. Anggotanya berjumlah 5 orang yaitu Hayley Williams, Josh Farro, Jeremy Davis, Taylor York dan Zac Farro. Album pertamanya ialah All We Know Is Failling dirilis pada tahun 2005. Dan album kedua yaitu RIOT! pada tahun 2007. Mereka juga ikut berpartisipasi dalam Soundtrack Album TWILIGHT pada tahun 2008 dengan menyumbang 2 lagu, "Decode" dan "I Caught Myself". Lagu "Decode" menjadi nominasi di MTV movie awards untuk kategori "Best Soundtrack". Mereka juga merilis DVD THE FINAL RIOT! tour pada tahun 2008. Pada tahun 2009 ini, mereka juga merilis album baru mereka yang berjudul "brand new eyes" pada tanggal 29 September 2009 yang bertepatan pada ulang tahun gitaris mereka, Josh Farro.

Decode-Paramore

How can I decide what’s right?
When you’re clouding up my mind
I can’t win your losing fight all the time
Not gonna ever own what’s mine
When you’re always taking sides
But you wont take away my pride
No not this time
Not this time

How did we get here?
When I use to know you so well
How did we get here?
Well, I think I know

The truth is hiding in your eyes
And its hanging on your tongue
Just boiling in my blood,
But you think that I can’t see
What kind of man that you are
If you’re a man at all
Well, I will figure this one out on my own
On my own ("I’m screaming I love you so")
On my own (My thoughts you can’t decode)

How did we get here?
When I use to know you so well, yeah.
How did we get here?
Well, I think I know

Do you see what we’ve done?
We’ve gone and made such fools of ourselves
Do you see what we’ve done?
We’ve gone and made such fools of ourselves

Yeah
How did we get here?
When I use to know you so well, yeah yeah.
How did we get here?
Well, I use to know you so well

I think I know
I think I know
There is something I see in you
It might kill me I want it to be true

-Jacob Black-Taylor Lautner-

Early life

Jacob was born to Billy and Sarah Black. Sarah died in a car crash when he was very young, though Jacob never speaks of this. He has two older sisters, Rachel and Rebecca. Rebecca moved to Hawaii and eventually married while Rachel, who had been off at college, returned later in Breaking Dawn and was imprinted on by Paul.

Twilight

Jacob has a small but very important role in Twilight. After Bella Swan flirts with him (as a way to get information), he introduces the idea of Edward Cullen being a vampire by telling her Quileute legends. He is later seen crashing Forks High's prom under his father's orders to tell Bella to break up with Edward. According to Stephenie Meyer  via her official website, Jacob was originally just a device to tell Bella about the "Cold Ones." However, both she and her editor liked Jacob so much that they decided to give him a larger role in the sequels to Twilight. He therefore becomes a main character in New Moon, Eclipse, and Breaking Dawn.

In the movie adaptation, we see more of Jacob Black. He first shows up to bring Bella her new truck and gives her tips on how to drive it. However, in the beach scene he doesn't physically tell her what Edward is. In turn, forcing her to do her own digging to get the answer she wants.

New Moon

Bella becomes very good friends with Jacob, the son of her father's friend Billy Black, after Edward leaves Forks in New Moon. Jacob helps her become somewhat happy and normal again, though she still misses Edward. New Moon reveals that Jacob is one of an ancient line of Quileute werewolves. They are the mortal enemies of all vampires, including the Cullen family. At first Jacob thinks all this is a bunch of superstition, and he becomes frightened and disturbed by the influence a young man on the reservation, Sam Uley, has on some of the Quileute youth. After Jacob goes through a sudden transformation to a werewolf, it is revealed that Sam, the leader of Jacob's pack, was the first to make the transformation in several generations. He'd gone though his own hardships during the change, including a rather bloody incident with his girlfriend (now fiancée) Emily Young. As werewolves are short-tempered, highly violent, and likely to explode into wolf form when provoked to anger, Jacob initially promises his pack he would stay away from Bella. He and his new friends patrol the forest, searching for the vampires in the area who are killing local hikers. Jacob and the pack save Bella from the vampire Laurent (from Twilight), who is trying to kill her. Before the over-sized wolves chase him off, Laurent tells Bella that Victoria (also from Twilight) wants revenge on Edward for killing James, her mate.

Sometime later, Jacob unexpectedly shows up at Bella's bedroom window and apologizes for a recent fight and for avoiding her. When she asks him what's happening with him, he claims that he can't tell her, but leaves her a clue to what he and the rest of Sam's group is. Bella remembers the stories Jacob told her (in Twilight), about the Quileutes being descendants from wolves. The next day, she confirms that Jacob is a werewolf. She later confronts him, assuming his pack to be behind the recent murders in the forest. Jacob convinces her that their job is to protect humans from vampires, and they would never harm anyone. He also tells her that Laurent is dead, and together they figure out that a certain red-headed vampire terrorizing the werewolves and hikers in the forest is actually Victoria. But when Jacob calls his pack to give them the news, they are indignant that Bella has learned their secret. Paul, one of the pack members, loses his temper, phases into his wolf form and tries to attack Bella. Jacob quickly phases into a wolf and viciously mauls Paul, chasing him into the woods. Bella and Charlie spend much of their time in La Push during Bella's spring break. Jacob and Bella renew their friendship, and Jacob tells Bella what it's like being a werewolf. Sometime later, Bella, still in grief over losing Edward, goes cliff-diving and nearly drowns before Jacob pulls her out of the water.

Upon returning to the Blacks' home, Bella and Jacob learn that Charlie and Billy's friend Harry Clearwater  has died of a heart attack; a quick succession of events later that evening and the next day pry Bella and Jacob apart. Jacob drives Bella home, only to discover that Alice  has inexplicably turned up there; Jacob recoils from her presence and flees to La Push to regroup. He returns to the Swans' home the next day to apologize to Bella; they nearly kiss when the phone interrupts them. When Jacob answers, he mistakes Edward's voice for Carlisle's, and, refusing to surrender much information, tells the caller that Chief Swan was attending a funeral. Having received cryptic information, Edward assumes the funeral is for Bella, thinking she killed herself. Grief-stricken, he goes to see the Volturi, and Bella and Alice rush to stop him. Jacob is hurt and disgusted by Bella's choice, Edward's return, and Bella's willingness to go back to him and become a vampire.

In the epilogue of New Moon, Jacob reminds Edward of the Quileute-Cullen treaty, which forbids the Cullen family from biting humans. This means that if a member of the Cullen family turned Bella into a vampire, the treaty would be broken and the werewolves could start a war. Jacob is upset by the whole conversation, though Bella manages to calm him down before she and Edward leave. However, when Bella turns to look at Jacob one last time, she sees he is suffering in heart-wrenching emotional pain.

Eclipse

The third installment of the series begins with Jacob still trying to keep a safe distance away from Bella. She desperately tries to get a hold of him to talk, but he continues to ignore her attempts. He decides to write her a note instead. He is not comfortable with the idea of Bella walking around with a vampire. The thought of it causes him to almost lose control with anger.

The book starts with Bella reading the note from Jacob. He has a hard time expressing himself in the note, as she reads through many unfinished sentences that end up being crossed out. The last comment in the note is not crossed out, and shows that even though he misses spending time with her, he is still angry with their situation.

Later on in the series, his affection towards Bella grows stronger. He's enraged by the fact that she will become a vampire after graduation, which is only a few weeks away. Bella feels bad that she's spending all her time with Edward  and so she sneaks off to visit Jacob. Jacob invites Bella to come with him to a Quileute council meeting, and she accepts. Jacob and Bella spend the night together and listen to tribe legends, believed to be real by the Quileute. When Edward realizes that he has been overprotective, he encourages Bella to visit him on a regular basis. On one of the later visits, Jacob tells Bella he loves her, and kisses her, thinking that Bella loves him back. Bella, outraged that he would kiss her after he knows that she loves Edward, punches him in the jaw and breaks her hand. Jacob brings Bella home and is threatened by Edward that if he ever kisses Bella without her consent again, he'll break Jacob's jaw for her. But Edward also claims that he would allow it to happen if Bella wanted to kiss him.

A while later, at a graduation party held at the Cullens' house that Jacob decides to go to, giving Bella a charm bracelet with a carving of a wolf on it as a graduation present. While he's there he learns that Victoria has amassed a newborn vampire army to attack Bella. Jacob and the pack eagerly agrees on joining forces with the Cullens and learning how to fight these vampires. Their original plan was to have Seth Clearwater watch over Bella in a remote mountain place while the Cullens and the rest of the werewolf pack fought off the vampires. Bella, however, wanted Edward with her when she stayed in the mountains, and asked Edward. Edward agreed as long as Jacob would carry her to the place in the mountains so that her scent would be lost. They followed through with the plan, and Jacob carried Bella to the mountain hideaway. While waiting for the battle to be over, Edward, Bella, and Jacob set up camp. A blizzard blows through the camp, and Bella begins to freeze. Jacob comes in the tent and stays in Bella's sleeping bag to warm her up with his abnormal body heat, much to Edward's chagrin.

During the night, Jacob asks Edward about his relationship with Bella and what it felt like to lose her. They talk and temporarily forget their hatred for each other.

In the morning, Bella wakes up and Jacob leaves the tent. Bella and Edward then start discussing their marriage plans. Jacob, for some reason did not leave the campsite, overhears their conversation, and runs away because he's so upset that they're getting married. Upon Bella's request, Edward brings Jacob back and leaves them alone to talk. After some talk, Jacob says that he's going to go and kill himself because Bella doesn't love him. Bella then begs and pleads with him not to. Bella says that she'll kiss him if he won't commit suicide. Jacob agrees and Bella kisses him. To begin with, it is simply Jacob returning the kiss, but after a few minutes Bella finds herself kissing him back passionately and realizes that she is in love with Jacob after all. Jacob then leaves to finish the battle, promising that he will try and not get himself killed, and gets injured in the battle trying to save a fellow werewolf, Leah Clearwater, from a newborn vampire. The newborn mangled all the bones on the right side of Jacob, before being destroyed by Sam. Carlisle patches him up and a worried Bella visits him.

Jacob is shocked to hear that Edward didn't get angry at Bella for kissing him. They talk and Bella tells him that, although she loves Jacob deeply, she has chosen Edward. While heartbroken over her choice, Jacob doesn't show it, and reluctantly agrees to stop trying to take Bella from Edward. Jacob reminds Bella that he will always be there for her whenever she needs him.

The epilogue is written from Jacob's point of view for the first time in the series. Jacob and Leah are sitting at the edge of a cliff, with Jacob thinking about how difficult it will be when Bella is turned into a vampire. Leah tells him to get over Bella, and Jacob angrily tells her to leave him alone before he goes home. At home he finds that Edward has sent him a wedding invitation to Bella and Edward's wedding. Enclosed was a note from Edward, saying that Jacob did not have to come to the wedding, but that if Edward was in Jacob's shoes, he would want a choice. Edward thanks Jacob for everything. Unable to endure his human emotions any longer, he phases into a wolf, and runs away.

Breaking Dawn

In Breaking Dawn, Jacob is mentioned to have been gone for almost two months now, and is trying to live the rest of his life as a wolf so he doesn't have to deal with the pain he is in. Jacob is first seen at Bella's wedding, since he's decided to attend after all, despite still being heartbroken over her rejecting him. He apologizes to Bella and tells her that he only wants her to be happy. However, he becomes violent towards Edward when he finds out about their plans to make love while Bella is still human and has to be restrained by Seth and Sam. During Bella and Edward's honeymoon, Jacob, rage-filled, imagines the different outcomes of the honeymoon.

When Bella finally returns from the honeymoon, Jacob believes Bella was turned and demands the pack attack the Cullens. Sam refuses to do so, and Jacob goes on a solo attack mission, leaving his own home in the process. He finds out that she is pregnant, though still human, and sees that Bella has purple and blue bruises on her stomach from where the hybrid baby has kicked. He talks with Edward, who doesn't want the baby because it is killing Bella, but cannot do anything because Rosalie Hale guards Bella, upon Bella's request. Rosalie's choice influences Emmett, Esme and Carlisle and so Edward cannot force Bella to have an abortion. Desperate, Edward asks Jacob to offer Bella to have babies with Jacob, which would be a much healthier pregnancy than the current one. Jacob is sickened but tempted by this offer and agrees to try to persuade Bella to have an abortion. He also promises Edward that he'll kill Edward if Bella dies.

He returns to Sam and tells him about Bella's pregnancy. The pack plan on killing Bella and the baby because they see the unborn baby as a threat. A threat which is also protected by members of the Cullens. Jacob still loves Bella, however, and revolts against Sam's authority as Alpha. He embraces the Alpha heritage born in him and breaks away from the pack. Seth and Leah Clearwater join him and they patrol the Cullens' territory, preventing Sam's pack from launching an attack.

While running patrols, Leah requests that she stay in Jacob's pack after Renesmee's birth. Jacob is taken back by this but agrees to think about it. Leah admits to Jacob that she understands Rosalie and Bella and that, if their positions were switched around, they would all do the same for each other. Jacob is enraged by this and is lead into an awkward (for him) conversation about Leah's being menopausal and her love for Sam. Jacob ends the conversation to go and check up on Bella.

A few days later, Edward hears the baby's mind for the first time, and he loves the unborn baby as it already loves Bella, leaving Jacob feeling betrayed. Edward hears this and gives the keys of his Aston Martin Vanquish to Jacob, so that Jacob might get away from them. Jacob desperately drives out to look for his soul mate, someone who he may imprint on, so that he would forget his love for Bella. His search ends up fruitless.

Jacob comes back and learns that the baby has broken yet more of Bella's bones. Edward asks Jacob, as heir to the chef, Ephraim Black, for permission to change Bella into a vampire after the birth of the hybrid. Feeling empty inside, Jacob agrees.

After Bella gives birth to a girl she names Renesmee, Bella appears to 'die' after Edward bites her to turn her into a vampire. Jacob goes off to kill Renesmee, but imprints on her when he sees her. He nicknames Renesmee, Nessie, because her real name is a mouthful. Bella is extremely irritated with the nickname because it refers to the Loch Ness Monster, and the fact that it catches on. He is extremely close to Renesmee, goes hunting with her, and for Christmas he braids her a bracelet that is the Quileute version of a promise ring. Jacob has a strong desire to protect her and to keep her happy and safe. It is likely that his feelings will eventually turn into romantic and sexual interests when she is older. It is hard for him to be separated from her, so he visits every day and almost never leaves the Cullen house. However, he states that once Renesmee's growing slows down, he will go back to school. Finally, Sam's pack stops trying to attack the Cullens, since the most important of the werewolf laws that one cannot kill the object of another wolf's imprinting, due to the damage it would cause to the wolf in question. It is also stated that Jacob's close friends, Quil and Embry, who stayed with Sam when Jacob when his separate way, also have joined Jacob's pack after Renesmee was born.

When the Volturi come (mistaking Renesmee for an immortal child), Bella plans for Jacob to run away with Renesmee to Rio de Janeiro, Brazil, so that they may be saved from the upcoming slaughter. She had forged passports made for the two of them, with Jacob as Jacob Wolfe, and Renesmee as Vanessa Wolfe. When the Volturi left shamefully and regretfully, Bella is overjoyed and calls Renesmee, 'Nessie'. At the end of Breaking Dawn, he, along with other wolves, hear from Edward that they are not really werewolves, but are rather shapeshifters with the ability to turn into wolves. After the Volturi's "trial", Jacob jokes that life will be "boring now", which Edward remarks that he fervently hopes so.

Wolf abilities

*Regeneration - As a wolf, he has a powerful regenerative healing factor. This allows his body to heal at an abnormal rate, faster than any human body can. The extent of this regeneration is very powerful, to the point that Jacob comments that even a bullet through his temple wouldn't be enough to kill him. Small cuts and minor injuries heal within seconds while larger, more damaging injuries, such as broken bones and blood loss, seem to heal within minutes.

*Phasing - Can phase in and out of werewolf form. With practice and skill, one can morph faster and with more efficiency, with Jacob being the one exception, being able to phase in mid-jump, while it takes the rest of the pack several seconds to phase.

*Telepathy - Only works within the pack, and when in wolf form. They can speak with each other telepathically and hear each other's thoughts. Though this is more than useful while hunting and tracking, there is no privacy left in the pack because of this ability. It can be described as both a gift and a burden. Their thoughts are open even when they tried to hide them. After Jacob formed a pack of his own, he is able to communicate those within his pack and Sam, the Alpha of his previous wolf pack, if he chooses to. Also, because his wolf mind is linked with his pack, Bella can protect him and his fellow wolves with her shield solely by shielding him.

*Physically enhanced - Has super-strength in both wolf and human form. This has been displayed numerous times, as how Jacob was able to carry Bella 9 miles through a thick forest with ease, taking less than half an hour. In wolf form, they are also exceptionally fast, running at a top speed of about 80 to 90 miles per hour. In human form they seem to have an average speed of about 30 to 40 miles per hour, about half the speed of vampires, and can lift an average of about 500 to 600 pounds. Before phasing, the human form will build up their muscles naturally and will be ready for the first time they phase. It can be speculated that werewolves are actually stronger than vampires due to the fact werewolves can build up their muscles, strength and endurance. Jacob is known as the physically strongest in both packs, though not as fast as Leah.

*Increased durability - Werewolves have a high durability rate, most famously seen when Bella struck Jacob in the jaw with all of her strength, and ended up badly breaking her hand while Jacob, who wasn't even remotely hurt, couldn't tell that she was trying to hurt him until she started screaming. This is also seen when Jacob, in Breaking Dawn, said that it would take a large truck, moving at high speed to break his bones. The same thing happens in Eclipse, during the war with the Seattle Newborn Army that it took a small group of newborns to crush his bones.

*Delayed aging - They cannot start aging until a solid period of time without phasing goes by. It is unknown the exact length of time, only it would be very difficult because phasing is instinctual, along with the fact that vampires often come through Washington and the werewolves are needed whenever vampires are close.

*High body temperature - Werewolves have a constant body temperature of about 110° degrees to withstand severe cold weather. This high body heat also allows them to survive in very hot weather, making it hard for their bodies to overheat. This high body temperature is very useful in combat, as it makes it extremely hard for vampires to harm them because they are extremely sensitive to heat. In Breaking Dawn, after Bella becomes a vampire, she describes Jacob's skin as like touching an open fire and unbearable to touch. This temperature also prevents frequent illness, by killing any potential pathogens they come into contact with before they can become ill.

*Alpha voice - As the Alpha of his pack, the wolf can force his followers to obey his orders whether they refuse or not. Jacob never uses his voice to force his teammates, though he has the power and it is even stronger than Sam's voice.

http://twilightsaga.wikia.com/wiki/Jacob_Black

first time

hemm .. hello semuanya !! i'm back !! haha. gua mau cerita nih. ga papa ye kalo cerita gua geje. hehe.
hari senin kemaren adalah hari pertama gua masuk sekolah. hari pertama di sekolah selalu saja tak jelas dan aneh bin wagu. kaya yg buat nih blog [ngaku nih]. ya pokoknya it's me :)) ah ga nyambung ama kalimat sebelumnya :p Ga tau tuh para guru ngebagi kelas menurut apa. yang jelas kita ber-5 [gua, mb jeant, bella, mb ulva ama rara] tersebar pada 3 kelas (idih bahasanya :DD) jadi, si bella ama mb ulva masuk kelas ipa1 gua ama rara masuk kelas ipa3 sedangkan mb jeant hidup seorang diri di kelas ipa4. but no problem. soalnya perbedaan kelas kita bakal jadi sesuatu yg bikin kita lebih sempurna [sok amat sih gua].hehe. this story will began .. brembrembrem :))
pagi itu gua bangun pagi jam 6 [kalo ga salah] gua lama banget dikamar mandi yah maklum gua kan cewe tulen. hehe. abis itu gua keluar dr kamar mandi uda jam 7 krg 15. padahal gua blom nyetrika juga gilak banget kan .mana pas gua di kamar mandi pintunya digedorgedor ama adek gua yg sumpah nyebelin banget. jadi totalnya [lhoh (?)] gua ga sempet sarapan dan gua brgkt jam 7 lebih dikit dr rumah. sebenernya biasa sih gua brgkt jam segitu. tp kan ini hari pertama gua masuk sma lg. dan merasakan jadi anak kelas 11. padahal gua blom tau masuk keals mana waktu itu. 15 menit perjalanan dr rumah gua ampe sekolah. setelah ampe sekolah gua langsung meluncur ke tempat dmana pengumuman pembagian kelas ditempel. untung disana ada tementemen gua. setelah tau gua masuk di ipa3 barengan rara nia ilul dan iman (yg dr kelas x3 dl) gua agak tenang lah. setidaknya punya temen yg uda benerbener gua kenal. gua jalan kekelas ama lindha ama sintha. setelah itu gua masuk kelas bareng rara. pas pertama kali gua masuk kelas baru gua, gua kaya orang asing yg tersesat di planet antah berantah. kasihan bener kan gua?? "-- trus gua ama rara nyari tempat duduk. gua ama rara diberikan 2 pilihan karena kita emang berangkat paling akhir. jadi kita cuma dapet tempat duduk sisa. pilihannya yaitu duduk didepan guru atau dibelakang sendiri. dan akhirnya dengan berbagai pertimbangan kami memutuskan untuk duduk di bangku belakang sendiri. sungguh malang nasib kita TOT .tp tak apalah. yg penting kita dapet bangku daripada kita harus bawa tiker buat duduk pas pelajaran. ga lucu kan?? hemm .sebenernya gua takut kalo gua ga bisa bergaul dikelas gua yg sekarang ini. soalnya cewekcewek yg ada dikelas gua tuh tergolong "WAH" jd gua takut kalo kita ga bisa klop. ya semoga aja kita bisa saling mengisi satu sama lain. semoga :))

The Only Exception

When I was younger I saw my daddy cry
and curse at the wind.
He broke his own heart and I watched
as he tried to reassemble it.

And my momma swore
that she would never let herself forget.
And that was the day that I promised
I'd never sing of love if it does not exist.

But Darling,
You are the only exception.
You are the only exception.
You are the only exception.
You are the only exception.

Maybe I know somewhere
deep in my soul
that love never lasts.
And we've got to find other ways
to make it alone.
Keep a straight face.
And I've always lived like this
keeping a comfortable distance.
And up until now I had sworn to myself
that I'm content with loneliness.

Because none of it was ever worth the risk.

Well you are the only exception.
You are the only exception.
You are the only exception.
You are the only exception.
You are the only exception.

I've got a tight grip on reality,
but I can't let go of what's in front of me here.
I know you're leaving in the morning
when you wake up.
Leave me with some kind of proof its not a dream.

You are the only exception.
You are the only exception.
You are the only exception.
You are the only exception.

You are the only exception.
You are the only exception.
You are the only exception.
You are the only exception.

I'm on my way to believing
And I'm on my way to believing

IGNORANCE-paramore

If I’m a bad person,
You don’t like me.
I guess I’ll go,
Make my own way.
It’s a circle,
A mean cycle.
I can’t excite you anymore.
Where’s your gavel, your jury?
What’s my offense this time?
You’re not a judge but if you’re gonna judge me,
Well sentence me to another life.

(Chorus) Don’t wanna hear your sad songs.
I don’t wanna feel your pain,
When you swear it’s all my fault.
Cause you know we’re not the same.
Oh we’re not the same,
The friends who stuck together.
We wrote our names in blood,
But I guess you can’t accept that the change is good,
It’s good.
You treat me just like another stranger.
Well it’s nice to meet you sir.
I guess I’ll go.
I best be on my way out.
Ignorance is your new best friend.

This is the best thing that could’ve happened.
Any longer and I wouldn’t have made it.
It’s not a war.
No, it’s not a rapture.
I’m just a person, but you can’t take it,
The same tricks that once fooled me.
They won’t get you anywhere.
I’m not the same kid from your memory.
Now I can fend for myself.

(Chorus)

You treat me just like another stranger.
Well it’s nice to meet you sir.
I guess I’ll go.
I best be on my way out

'putih abu-abu' ku

sekitar bulan juni tahun lalu tepatnya tahun '09 gua uda kagak jadi gadis yang tiap senin ampe kamis pake seragam 'putih biru'. alias gua udah jadi gadis manis yang punya seragam kebanggaan 'putih abu-abu'. seneng banget rasanya. apalagi gua keterima di salah satu sma favorit di Jogja meski jogja pinggiran. hoho. gua sekolah di SMA 1 Sleman ato biasa disebut NXZ shs. dan dari situ lah kehidupan baru gua mulai.
hari-hari pertama jadi anak SMA seneng tapi susah. gua gga punya temen yang 1 smp. gga ada yang gua kenal di kelas itu. kelas X3 tepatnya. tiap gua pulang dari sekolah gua pasti nangis. gua pengen pindah. rasanya gga betah banget. tapi ortu gua kagak ngijinin gua pindah. hingga akhirnya gua coba jalani semuanya. sampai sekarang sampai kebersamaan di 'sego mambu' hampir berakhir. gua bahagia banget bisa ketemu ama mereka. bisa kenal ama mereka. kebaikan mereka selalu teringat dalam otakku. beraaaaaaaatttttt banget ngelepasin mereka. tapi tiap pertemuan pasti akan ada perpisahan. jadi gua tetep rela ...

arti persahabatan

alunan denting piano membangunkan diriku
membangunkan ku dari mimpi yang tak pasti
sebuah melodi indah yang membuat ku tersadar
sadar bahwa aku hidup didunia nyata
tapi aku masih tak mengerti tentang arti hidup ini
hingga aku menemukan sahabat
ya .. dia sahabat
orang yang selalu mengerti aku
tak pernah membawaku ke dalam kesesatan
mereka membuatku semakin nyata
mengisi hariku yang hampa
tak pernah sedikit pun terbersit sebuah niat
niat untuk meninggalkan mereka
ku ingin mereka mendengar
ku ingin mereka tahu
bahwa.....
aku kan slalu menyayangi mereka
sampai kapanpun...

posting pertama gua

gara gara si ella [temen sekelas ku di esemaa yang geje] *piss ya la .. v^^ gua jd ikut ikutan buat blogger .hehe .tp tak apalah tak ada salahnya mencoba .hoho . sebenernya gua bingung mau nulis apa .jadi gua nulis geje kaya gini .haha .tapi tak apalah .yang penting gua seneng banget deh bisa punya blog .ckck . ya sudahlah cukup sekian dan terimakasih . :DD *ndhindt*